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EHm, gue kemaren nemu ini, dan I think, gue rasa ini sedikit mewakili beberapa hal yang ingin gue ungkapin. Haha. Gue copast curhatan dari survivinginfp.wordpress.com 
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I have come to wonder… how do you know if someone is willing to travel the spiritual path of life with you- even though it would take work? I am willing to put in the emotional work to be a balanced person.. but how does one know if the person is willing to be very patient with me and also be open to theirs as well?
I had thought my friend and I were spiritually connected in some way. Not sure if it makes any sense, but I had asked for someone with his name to be in my life before I met him. The first time we met was pretty average, but I had a dream of him where he turned and looked at me silently in a dream- it seemed to me it was indication we needed to talk. I kept dreaming of him after that- and it was more than I ever dreamt of anybody, family included.
The first time we went out for drinks, we saw a double rainbow and he even bought a mirror. We even had the same type of watch and mobiles. Now you think I’m in cuckoo-land don’t you? ;D.
I had felt then he was my mirror-mate, if you understand. Someone who reflects you closely, but inversely. I really cared for him.
It was often easy to understand each other and conversations would flow. I was always very honest and kind with him. But it was also easy to build on each others emotions, negatively. If I became irrational, he would follow suit.
During the past year or so though, we did our own growing and seemed more different.
Smart people will say that you cannot build a relationship on surface similarities- it has to be about similar values and respect.
Still its hard to let go of someone whom you cared intensely about and believe you have a spiritual connection with. But because he has implied this is too much for him as he does not know what would trigger me next and distance would be better, I will not force him. There is just no point.. right..?
I wish my anger issues would just go away.. and this didn’t turn out like this. I thought I had made progress in getting better- but turns out the explosives are gone but the switch is still there. My fuse is not working properly yet.. (haha..cynical laugh)
Cried out my eyes a bit, guess its time now to move on. (Ne (extroverted intuition) is being in a protective mode with the lame jokes..)
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Sebenarnya itu nggak sepenuhnya mewakili gue, cuma yang paling gue suka yang gue underline, hahaha.